So, I haven't posted in while. Obviously!
It's been a tough few months. I left university feeling on top of world. Unstoppable, with a sense of identity that I had never had before.
And then I started applying for jobs and nothing.
It made me feel very worthless and like I was fraud. I'd skipped around after uni going on about getting an award and a First, but now look?! I obviously wasn't all that great.
I'm now back living with my in-laws which I am so grateful for and is a privilege not everyone has.
But I still feel useless.
And then corona's hit! I am trying my best to not add it to my list of worries, whilst abiding by all the guidelines set out, but my lord that's a hard one.
And in the cruelest twist of fate, when I feel down the first aspect of me to disappear is the very one which keeps me sane - my creativity.
So this first post isn't just a 'remember me!' for all of you, but also a "remember me!" to myself.
Get myself back into a routine - waking up early, eating better, staying active looking for jobs, but also letting myself stay creative. Not being so hard on myself because I didn't walk into a job, straight out of university.
Even in the hardest time, we deserve moments of happiness.
We deserve to be ourselves.